I don't usually post here about the Keto way of eating but I am today...
I was kind of torn between deciding if I wanted to maintain a keto way or eating around the holidays or just indulge in the holidays and eat all of the traditional foods that I tie so many memories and emotions to... Well I didn't make a conscience decision, I think my sub-conscience just decided to throw keto out the window for a little while and eat whatever I wanted. I think it all began with my Disney trip on 12/1, I was definitely off of keto for at least 10 days straight. Anyway, I'm paying the piper now, I just weighed in and have gained 20 pounds! I knew I gained some, I thought maybe 10 but 20... that's insane to me. I can't believe how fast carbs make me body retain weight.
I'm thinking back to the cheating I did and I have to say, it wasn't worth it. There wasn't anything I feel like, you know what this 20 pounds was worth the gain. I ate what I wanted and had the buckeyes that my Grandmother makes around the holidays and although I like memories of her, eating junk food didn't make me feel any better not having her around for the holidays. I feel more depressed knowing I have to re-lose this 20 pounds and that I probably would've disappointed her more with this gain than eating those candies and all the other junk. If I could rewind time I would have maintained a Keto way of eating throughout Thanksgiving and Christmas. I've felt tired from eating the carbs, sluggish and bloated. The carbs just aren't worth it, the tastes aren't worth it, they don't make me feel happier or negate any feelings of not having my Grandparents around for the holidays.
I've been pursuing the Keto woe for a year and a half now, I think this is the first time I actually self evaluated my choices throughout the holidays. Next year my goal will be to maintain a keto woe as I have no desire to eat sugar, there's so many delicious keto options too. Perhaps next year I will eat whatever I want that's keto friendly and compare a potential gain to this year. 20 pounds, that's crazy. I won't let this be a major setback, I will lose it again and I will also hit my goal of 199 in 2019! I mean the year has 19 in it, it's kind of meant to be! :D
On to working out, this is one thing I haven't figured out yet. I can do it myself but a personal trainer helps me immensity. I also like the boot camp environment. I feel like I haven't quite found one I like yet. I just need to get this straightened out to feel like I'll be on track again. I also need a backup plan though, I can't let my success depend on an external factor. More planning to be done...
