Dead

I feel like all hope is lost, I feel like the hope that I thought was there was just a facade. I was in love with someone who couldn't love me back and now we're friends. I feel like it's killing me but I think if their feelings were mutual, I wouldn't love them any longer. It's like I'm purposely making myself be alone.
I don't know what's wrong with me any more and I'm losing hope in just going on living. I don't know what is left for me any more. I'm losing interest in everything, what I thought was important to me just doesn't seem like it's worth anything now.

I thought things would be different for me as I lost this weight but it seems like life is getting more depressing. I started at 401 pounds and now down to 259, I don't think my goal weight will change anything.

It just feels like I'm incapable of love